Saved by God.....

I was sick for 10 days, ummh actually 7 days in hospital
infected to dengue fever :s

It was 7 days full of pain, sorrow, and wound,
up to 39.7 Celsius fever, getting chills, sweating and cant sleep every night, headache, stomachache, can't get out of bed, even have to pee in the potty.
Pathetic.
But you know, somehow I feel that I was awakened by God in such times.
I think a lot, lot(s) maybe, every minute every second.
Why do I get sick like this?
Is He has a plan for me?
Or maybe its just a warning for me?
Apparently God would tell me something.
He wants me to love myself more than anyone in this world.
He wants me to concern myself .
He wants me to take a break in the midst of my bussiness.
He made me realize to have more attention to my own health.
He knows I'm too tired,
even the most exhausted time was when I served Him in His Retreat,
until I don't have any time for a rest.

He has also made ​​me realize that I've family who loves me
and so many friends and people out there who loves me, cares for me
what a best feeling to know and realize it all.
I truly feel blessed, really really blessed, more than blessed.
God forgive me for still often complain and ask "Why God?" , "Why did happen to me?"
God forgive me because sometimes I still doubt Your plan
forgive me because I still don't love myself,
forgive me for my lack of respect for people around me
thanks for these 7 days, I really learned a lot.
From now on, I won't complain anymore
I just want to give thanks and gratitude,
for everything that God has given me
for everything that is good, all is good.
I swear I will love myself first,
just as God so loves me,
I love You my Jesus :)

"Behold, God is mine helper: the Lord is with them that uphold my soul"

-Psalms 54:4-

"The Lord will strengthen him upon the bed of languishing: thou wilt make all his bed in his sickness"

-Psalms 41:3-

"Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil:for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me"

-Psalms 23:4-

I MISS YOU :)

as simple as that

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Baby I miss you so bad

You're my reason to be true

ketika angan berbahasa

raga pun bercerita

bukan lagi seonggok hina

ataupun untaian cerca

tangisku sirna dalam kalbu

beku ini membelenggu pilu

ombak tak lagi menggulung

hanya pasir hanyut tak mengurung

dunia kabur

lari dari serpihan debu

terjerat dalam kerangka semu

menari merenggut kabut biru

sinarnya tak lagi terang

enyah sudah jelita malang

hanya sisa raga yang terbilang

tak acuh bagaikan jalang

detik ini kian melangkah

walau tak ada tentu arah

lantas siapakah yang pantas kalah?

bukankah hina kata menyerah?

a poem by Veronica Vera :)

HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD!

STRONGER THAN BEFORE :)

Ketika Drama menjadi Realita

Oleh Veronica Vera

Cinta
datang dan pergi seketika
membawa sejuta angan dan rasa
semua seakan sempurna

Entah mengapa
kata mereka cinta itu buta
buta dari pahitnya realita
terbuai dalam ilusi pentas drama

Ironisnya
mereka pula yang mencinta
meski tau perihnya luka
apa daya hati tak kuasa

Bagiku cinta itu apa adanya
tak menuntut tak mencela
terungkap tanpa kata
terlihat tanpa mata

Memberi tanpa menerima
percaya tanpa curiga
memaafkan walau terluka
setia walau tergoda

Pada akhirnya, cinta itu dia
karna dia membutakan mata
menyempurnakan cela
dan mengubah drama menjadi sepenggal realita

SMILE, a Greatest Gift Ever :D

SMILE, no matter how hard your life is :)))))

Where's my sunshine?

NO MORE
hurt.pain.disappointment.tear.regret.sadness.sorrow.fear
SHOW ME
right way.happiness.laughter.smile.blessedness.comfort


I had a bad past,
and I've learned from my mistakes.
I've been trough it all
I've survived by myself
and now I've become tougher and stronger


One thing that I've learned
"Our God is a jealous God and if you put anything before Him, He will take it away"
Thank God, You've shown me the way :)

when she becomes 20's . . .

How grateful I am to have such amazing people in my life,
who love and care of me so much.
Zillion thanks Jesus,
for a perfect family that I have,
who never tired of giving me their perfect love,
for so many friends who always have my back,
walk besides me,
always there when I needed them most,
have a million ways to make me smile,
even in the toughest storm in my life,
no matter what.
I don't even know what my life would be like without them.


How lucky I am :)
Thank God, for a year older,
I'm 20th now, no more teenager lol.
Wish that each dream may come alive this year *fingerscrossed ,
I will bring joy and happiness to those around me,
and become a better and better woman,
and uhmmm last but not least,
meet my truly soulmate <3
Thank you,
for the surprises, gifts, cakes and wishes!
You've really made my 20th Birthday,
Happiest Birthday ever!

Love love love you most! <33333

YOU GUYS ARE TRULY MY SUNSHINE :)

So this is the only place where I can feel calm
get away from anything and anyone,
in the midst of those busy days.
A place where I can actually express my feelings properly,
without being judged,
no doubt and no fear.
A place where I can smile even burst into tears,
alone, with no one.
Such a quiet, peaceful, and warm place,
where I always thankful for His abundant blessings in my life
and a quiet place in the midst of this hectic town

So guys, let's take your time,
at least less than 30 mins of 1440 mins He gave you.
Be grateful, you'll be more blessed :)

u n t i t l e d

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

What a Girl Wants !

Friendship !

Fashion !

Photo, photo and Photo!

Become a business woman :)

Get much money from her own business

Shopping using her own money

Candle Light Dinner with her soulmate :)

White Roses :)

Get Married!

Pregnant

have a child :)))

Everlasting Love, xoxo

Be the girl you want your daughter to be.
Be the girl you want your son to date.
Be classy, anything but trashy :)

The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd.
The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.

Confidence is admitting who you are,
what you've done
and loving yourself for what you've become,
no matter what others think of you

Manners are like the shadows of virtues,
They are the momentary display of those qualities which our fellow creatures love and respect.

Be pretty on the inside too,
Don't just worry about your physical appearance,
Physical beauty fades,
Inner beauty lasts forever :)

How Blessed is Our Country,

How I Love Indonesia! ♥

Toba Lake, North Sumatera ♥

Maninjau Lake, West Sumatera ♥

Kelimutu Lake, Flores ♥

Green Canyon, Pangandaran ♥

Mount Rinjani, Lombok ♥

Raja Ampat Island, Papua ♥

Belitung Island ♥

Sentani Lake, Papua ♥

Bunaken Marine Park ♥

Komodo Island ♥

Mount Jayawijaya, Papua ♥